what?

it was just a moment ago, i was younger and wondering which way to go and what to do, so i blinked and here i am it's thirty(+/-) years later and i'm still wondering,and somewhere and somehow during that blink i found you. gini

toasty

when larry was growing up he always attended church but he never really was a firm believer he did go to sunday school and church,possibly to keep his mother happy. he sang the songs was an acolyte, put his quarter in the donation plate, was in the church's youth group, went to the church's christmas events, every year where they brought in possibly the most realistic looking santa claus larry had ever seen, and that has absolutely nothing to do with church. but after all that larry still was confused about religion. larry wondered with the earth's billions of people and the many different religions how his religion was the only "right" religion and everyone else was wrong and would therefore be spending eternity in hell?

HELL? larry had some trouble understanding hell. it didn't seem to larry that hell could be a whole lot worse than things are now, minus the air-conditioning and the weenies and marsh-mellows for roasting. and just if his religion was the only "right" religion then hell would have to be a very spacious place(besides hot),possibly like the DMV when the air-conditioning is on the blink?

larry thought about religion occasionally but was still confused he thought just maybe it was all a matter of just being a good dude, isn't that what it's all about? and larry did try to be good, and obeying the 10 commandments and some of the teachings in the bible, not because they're "in" the bible just because it is all part of trying to be a good dude, and that's the way he was brought up.

your in san diego(urine san diego)

recently my wife,daughter and i visited our son who's a marine and is stationed in san diego,so along with my daughter and wife we had a lovely time doing some site-seeing going to different restaurants and swimming at the beaches. one thing i found hard to accept though "being from central ohio and living on a farm of 255 acres," is that you can't just whizz whenever to urge is there, i've grown accustom to urinating on every square inch of the 255 acres without the threat of anyone getting a view of my privates or being incarcerated and serving several days in the poky. san diego is very beautiful but extremely dry "my son told me it hadn't rained in 6 months and when it did it was only for around 30 minutes," so it seems to me if everyone would whizz whenever they felt the urge "and carry around a little bag of agricultural lime to kill the horrible smell of urine," their problems might just be solved. of course san diego has millions of people practically living on top of each other and finding privacy could be a real problem, so forget it, or try it just don't bend over when your incarcirated in the san diego pokey.

hay u.

damn the summer and the sun
i guess the weathers perfect and it should be done, and
hook up, raise up when you see
those
frick'n groundhog
holes

round and round
mindless,and round
and water, time goes by for drying
and the sun,knowing there's nothing in it but the feed

and it's something to do

even though it's mindless

the fag diet

lately, probably due to my age, i've been putting on a few, quite a few extra pounds. i also quit smoking several years ago and due to quitting i've substituted cigarettes with quite abit of food. i know of all the bad things cigarettes. can do to your body and besides that there so frick'n expensive. so in order to curb my appetite i've elected to resume the disgusting habit of smoking, i've chosen to make my own cigarettes and it seems to be working.

if you must smoke "and due to this weight loss thing i must," rolling your own is the way to go.and due to this pain in the keister economic recession it makes smoking just a little more affordable, sure the threat of cancer is still there but you'll be the most handsome dude "and thinnest," at the morgue.

rug

i don't know if you'd call it vain but i suppose you would, when i was younger "not that i'm quite ready for the bone yard," i had hair, there were people that had more, and some with less, but this was mine and i was proud of it, now i've reached that time in life where i'm losing it, off the top of my head and it's growing everywhere else, the remaining hair on my head is turning gray but the hair growing from my ears and eye brows looks funky and requires constant maintenance, and isn't even turning gray.

since i've been losing hair and the remaining hair has been turning gray i've been cutting it myself with an electric razor it gives you that world war two concentration camp appearance but at this age and stage in life i'm really not to concerned. i also have a spot on the back of my head where there should be hair but there's not, i was in the hospital once and developed a bed sore that was thirty years ago and i've never seen it"except in the mirror," they tell me it's nasty. so along with the buzzed off, with bed sore, concentration camp, hair dew, i appear as a older, past middle-age type dude with a bad hair day.

when i was younger i suppose i was more concerned about my appearance but now that i'm older my priorities have changed and i'm more aware of the cost of gas than whether or not my part is straight, and just think of the money that i'm now saving on hair products.

waste

there's nothing quite as disgusting as human waste, it's bad, real bad, especially if it's someone else's but even if it's yours it's bad. say you're walking down the street and you just happen upon a fresh pile it doesn't really matter who's it is, it's bad. now i've been living and working on my father-n-law's dairy farm for nearly 20 years, where he milks and fattens holstein cattle and holstein's have the cadillac of poop. personally i've never found the aroma to be offensive, any other poop fails in comparison. now baby holstein's are a little rank because of there mom's milk but as soon as they grow and no longer need mom there fine. chicken, turkey, and other members of the bird family are really bad, hog poop is really bad, the methane can cause you to pass out, now that's pretty bad. horse poop is sort of alright, depending on the horse's diet, and many other animals i've yet to experience the aroma from there poop,